The ladies that let myself and 20 other medical students in succession do vaginal exams on them were a little weird. Fucking heroes, and appreciated, but those were some weird ladies.
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Do things with your hands. Make stuff, build it up from parts, come to full terms with how all the internals work together. Fight the iffy joints, grind things down until it works. Your hands now probably hurt, and you just wasted all afternoon on something you probably could have bought off a man for fifty bucks.