It took me so long to realize that I actually hadn't always been the complacent cult member I thought I had been. My mind was rebelling but they told me that voice was the devil, so I learned to ignore myself.
I don't feel I need to forgive myself, because what I did was not intentional.
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Events may repeat themselves, precede their causes, and take different forms in different stories. They are the same events.