If you can't make your own neurotransmitters, storebought is fine.
That's fine. Anything that happens only in your head is totally cool and fine.
Madness string 77740
You exist, without name, without form. You cannot see the light of day; you cannot see the dark. You sold the green earth and the sun and stars to save yourself. But you have no self. All that which you sold, that was your self. You have given everything for nothing. And so now you seek to draw the world to you, all that light and life you lost, to fill up your nothingness. But it cannot be filled.