Madness string 2867

If my son were to follow through with his suicidal ideation, my dark secret is I completely understand because he would be out of his pain, and although it would completely destroy both of us, he would be more at peace than he is now. This kid is my life and my light. But him being at peace is something that I don't know that medication or his parents or environment can give him and that is the worst possible feeling you can have as a parent.