There is something sorrowful about flutes. The hollow melodies, lilting notes... sorrowful.
It just gets boring whenever each day seems to be worse than the previous day...
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You figure someone else has it worse, so is it really abuse? Is it really that bad? Emotional abuse sucks because there are no physical scars to show anyone, and you're left constantly second-guessing yourself. Take care of yourself. It could take years to realize how deeply you were affected.