When is a monster not a monster? Oh, when you love it.
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The trick for a lot of writers is to create a state of mind where you are not thinking about writing. Rather create a state of reverie, a dream state. Dreams are where other people escape from reality. But for the writer dreams are reality.
Some artists find their 'Demons' act as a muse, their illness is a tool, and therefor, they don't want to be healed.