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Random mermaid
I've been through a lot in my life. Getting clean was the hardest, because it's never-ending. Not just getting and staying off the drugs, but changing the way you think and react, finding all new coping mechanisms and rebuilding trust with other people, but also getting to the point of trusting yourself again, and feeling worthy of that trust.
The smell of earth, that deep, rich, fragrant smell you get after a long-awaited rain, even, or perhaps especially, the smallest shower, disturbing the dusty ground in a breath of cool without really doing much else... that earthen smell, the same smell as the taste of beets, it's fungus, right? AM I EATING SUGAR FUNGUS BLOOD CUBES?