When you see her parenting her children, assume that's what she wanted for you, and what she would have given you if she could. And I'm certain she knows it's not fair that you didn't get it.
There are gods in ancient and modern times who serve people with lofty ideals.
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At some point, neighbor, it becomes obvious that someone's word cannot be trusted. That's when the relationship is dead and it's time to bury it. If you don't bury dead things, they decay and stink the place out.