This is medicine. There's a label on the bottle, required by law, that tells you how to take it. Cooking food in it is not how you take it. You can cause massive, irreversible damage to your body using it improperly like that.
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At that point you can't even call it karma. It's just damnation. It doesn't matter how hard you try to change or reform, or how much you grow. You always need to be ready to pay any price for any past mistake as many times as it's asked.