People wonder why older folks get mean sometimes, now that I'm 50 I get it. Pain makes you powerless, that turns to anger quickly. I HATE the fact that my body dictates what I can and can't do anymore.
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I decided long ago that I would rather feel nothing ever again than feel the bottomless despair of PTSD and clinical depression. But in exchange for taking the pain away, you never get to experience pleasure again. It's like some fucking cautionary tale from a Greek myth.