Don't focus on hope. It is enough to just stay curious. Curiosity has the power to keep you alive far longer than hope ever will. Curiosity leads to engaging work and this leads to opportunity.
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I just refer to all my bad juju as trauma soup. Sometimes we are flippant about the awful things that happen to us because being serious about them makes us too sad, or going into too much detail makes us cry or whatever.