It's a state of mind. It's where you lose yourself and find yourself. You don't know it yet, but you've got it. It's right there. I saw you with those guys, you're a pit bull. They didn't back you down an inch. And that is very rare in this world.
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That is a horrible place to be, wondering if anything will ever be done. The system is reluctant, incompetent, and largely indifferent. In any case it is a poor, pale substitute for what you have probably imagined.