Some artists find their 'Demons' act as a muse, their illness is a tool, and therefor, they don't want to be healed.
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When I was young, I scribbled on a family photo I had when I was mad. After I scratched the face of who I was angry with, I mean, within seconds, I felt so bad I scratched all the faces to make it fair. Then I was like, wow I've ruined it all! I still fuckin' feel bad, and this was over 20 years ago.