Madness string 95592

Random mermaid
The reason why you feel fear is because it's not familiar. The unknown is scary, and some of the consequences are harsh. You can feel awful. You can feel all sorts of things, and still do the right thing. An act of character, you feel all those emotions, and there's a part of you that is unflappable. Absolutely committed. And the first time you feel it, it's great.

As someone who has been in various stages between, and including, being bedbound and housebound, I know how important independence is, and how it can feel degrading and humiliating to lose it.