It's just the interminable ravings of an unsound and enormous mind, I expect. Very big. Not very bright.
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I just wanted to say that from the description you've given your mother sounds like a wonderful person. Loving flawed individuals can be... difficult. For many it can be hard to see past the things they get wrong. But we are all hurting in one way or another, and those that can carry that pain with kindness are my favorite type of people. The strongest creatures on this planet. And from what I've read kindness is something she had mastered. I'm sorry for your loss, but she left something special behind. Never them take that, or make you doubt it.