This is kind of like going on a blind date with your body.
Madness string 114723
Yes, there's a Washington park in Portland in Oregon, a Vancouver in Washington state just across the border, none of the names here make any sense.
I'm not going to pretend I can even remotely imagine what that actually means or feels like. From the outside it's so damn clear that it's in no way your fault. But our psyche has its own way in many things.