I'm afraid this Really Useful Book isn't being terribly useful at the moment.
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That was my sister's name. Are you going to speak it like her? You are? That's wonderful, it's a wonderful name. Needs to be in the world.
I think you've suffered enough. You've given enough. I think you deserve a chance to just... give up. You accepted his choice, that ending the pain was better than the pain. Why can't you give yourself that gift?