You do know that if you mix holy water with normal water, the whole lot becomes holy as long as the ratio never exceeds 50:50. Just order a small bottle from the internet and keep mixing until you have enough.
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Will people judge or dismiss or mock you for being open and seeking help? Some will. Screw 'em. If they aren't being assholes about this, they'll be assholes about something else. Why run your life based on what assholes will say?