I can't disagree with you. Your dumb ideas tend to be amazingly fun.
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It's like prison time. Every individual moment feels like an eternity, but then you realize it's been a year since you've really thought about it and you remember none of it. Just moving through jello at the speed of light.
I want you to see the disorder, the chaos. Recognise what they are in comparison. You need to understand what you are.