Madness string 101826

Random mermaid
Sloppy work often comes from emotional stress. I have testified in court to terrible things, kept my cool, and never blinked during cross. I try to tell my mother my issues with being around her and her diagnosed and untreated borderline personality disorder and I end up sounding like an idiot. Court is easy compared to dysfunctional family.
I have these déja vu's of déja vu's of déja vu's and then a déja vu of this happening with the same context; I was in the same place with the same people talking to me saying that exact thing. It just makes no sense, it can go on for like a minute of thoughts inside my head of déja vu. And sometimes it happens, and then I déja vu a thought that occurred in my head the time before, like I would déja vu thinking 'fucking hell, no way this is real' and I would think about it and déja vu.